For those who are reading my blog, don't get me wrong for what i had posted the other day. i admit that i often get emotional sometimes, and i also admit that it was an unappropriate thing to do. its just that i just wanted to be appreciate with what i've been dying to do and to achieve. those struggling, efforts, every sweat that i've dripped, everything was nothing else but just my only initiatives to make those two important person in my whole life to be glad with me. i was wrong, i didn't realise that the moment i've been going through, those two person had always stay by my side through my thick and thin. being there to keep me standing and willing to burden themselves with my attitude whenever i had almost given up hope to continue what i've been doing. yeah, they love me so much and i'm putting my full effort to prove them that i felt the same way towards them. i'm sorry for being a screw up for all this while. i didn't fully appreciate for what you guys been sacrifying just for me. I'm totally sorry. i've promised myself to be a better person by the time ahead. i love you guys so much.

Please?

you're pretending, please stop :/

the feeling

the feeling of making people close to you happy.

THE REASON - HOOBSTANK #dedicated

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

please, i know what i'm doing. just chill and go with the flow!

no worries (:

it's been a hard time keeping it to myself, 2 years to be exact. thought of moving on was a simple thing to do. but being just an oddinary person won't help. running away from such problems was the stupidest thing i could think of. just like i expected, it keep coming back and i ended up blindfolded knowing no where to go. And so I lived in the past with regrets. Looking at all the chances, I was too afraid to take and the people I was too scared to admit my feelings to. I'm not good at expressing my feelings, so I keep everything bottled inside. Half the time, I want to tell someone what I'm feeling. so I stay quite. untill now. having such feeling for you was a shame thing for me to do and thanks cause It is you who has made me realize the failure of doing such decision. None of this is your fault. It is completely with me. I tried my best to not feel anything for you. Guess what? I failed. just for you to know, i do deserve for all those circumstances that will come, and yet, it came. so i've promised that i'll be just fine by myself. thank God for giving this opportunity cause this will be the most valuable lesson i've learnt. which is, once you're fucked up, don't beg for mercy. hahaha. so i'll pretend that i never posted these cause i value our friendship :) this is just how i express my feeling. no worries tho (Y) yeah, we change, we grow up, we fuck up, we love, we hurt but the most important, life goes on.

till' death do us apart :'(

pada hari sabtu bertarikh 5 januari 2013 

seorang rakan yang amat rapat dengan aku telah pulang ke rahmatullah.

nama arwah,

MUHAMMAD HAFIQ BIN AMIR.

*gambar*

arwah meninggal sebab accident motor langgar kereta storm.

berdekatan je dengan rumah aku.

masa aku datang dia tak sedar diri, mulut berbuih.

aku tak dapat nak buat apa apa sebab aku trauma.

sorry fiq, aku minta maaf sesangat. masa tu aku just boleh berdoa.

bukan sebab tu je, aku banyak buat salah kat kau. ejek kau semua.

tapi kau tak pernah ambil hati kat aku. aku rasa bersalah sangat.

even aku treat kau macam tu, kau selalu jumpa aku kalau ada masalah.

aku kenal kau dah lama fiq, dari sekolah rendah lagi sampai sekarang.

setiap kali cuti kau la yang datang rumah aku bawak aku jenjalan.

teman semua tempat aku pergi. aku gembira ada kawan macam kau.

sebab kau selalu fikir hati member :'/

banyak masa cuti aku spend dengan kau fiq. lagi lagi lepas kita habis sekolah ni.

setiap malam kau ambil aku kat rumah bawak aku pergi mamak.

tapi apakan daya, Allah lebih sayangkan kau.

semalam masa kita lepak sesama dengan amir, ejam, ikie.

dah macam set up sebab kita semua dah lama tak lepak sesama.

dan aku tak pernah sangka malam semalam merupakan malam 

terakhir aku berbual dengan kau.

kau la satu satunya rakan aku yang aku paling sayang bro, sumpah aku tak tipu T.T

dalam aku usik kau semua tu, aku harap kau faham niat aku.

memang susah bro nak terima kenyataan. tapi aku terpaksa.

lebih 10 tahun fiq kita kenal. lebih 10 tahun....

lepas ni kalau lepak pun akan kekurangan sorang la T.T

aku sayang kau gila fiq, sumpah.

aku halalkan semua benda dari aku kat kau, maafkan semua dosa kau kat aku.

aku janji aku akan sentiasa doakan kau :'/

semoga roh kau ditempatkan dengan orang yang beriman.

insyaAllah.

AL-FATIHAH :'/

we'll be missing you bro.

FIVE JAYA'S NIGHT

hari apa entah aku tak ingat yang pasti before spm la. 

kelas aku which is 5 JAYA adakan jamuan kelas bertempat di alamanda. 

ceh, tempat outing kitorang jugak. hahaha. 

so, kitorang buat biasa biasa jela. 

makan dekat rasamas then pergi main bowling sama sama.

the whole class join la time ni.

eventhough tak lama gathering ni, at least aku rasa best sebab dapat gather and sekali 

dengan uztaz ramli yang merupa guru kelas kitorang. 

masa main bowling, sumpah uztaz ramli paling gempak (Y) woot woot. hahaha. 

kelas JAYA ni lain la dari kelas yang lain sebab kitorang 

dah satu kelas since form 4.

tapi gabungan budak account this year buat kelas ni jadi lagi meriah.

so kelas ni kelas paling gila, bangang, lawak, tak matured, fun, bising yang pernah aku masuk.

thanks for the memories, love you guys tho (Y)